We ruined our love in this moment
like fleeting embers from the brightest fire
refusing to fight and salvage our desire
I thought I’d be fine but I was wrong
awake in a daze and listening to every sad song
every word and every line
pierces my soul and hammers my heart
I never thought I’d see the day when we finally fell apart
I try to eat but life lost it’s flavor
my mind lost wandering, thinking of all the moments I savor
to keep it all together I go through the motion
but my ship has sank and I’m drowning in the ocean
with no thought of rescue my heart skips a beat
all I can think, will I have to live like this forever...??
Faking and pretending they’ll be someone I could be happy with together
So I take a chance and sit down to write
it could make all this worse and I could lose this fight
but to me, she is worth it and not like any other
she was my best friend and closer than a brother
I waited my whole life and finally got my chance
To spend the best year of my life in an uncomparable romance
And I’m suppose to just let this go...??
To pretend that I don’t have feelings or god forbid let them show
that is not something I wish or would choose
to waste this away on a fuct night full of booze
I’ll stay strong in love and wait for as long as I can
For the hope or moment when I can kiss you or hold your hand